Excerpt About Rejection
It doesn’t matter what it is you think you want at any given moment. It doesn’t matter whether you think it’s bad or good. That’s not the point. The point here is the movement of the attitude of rejection, the attitude of wanting and desiring. The content is irrelevant. You might be experiencing misery and want happiness. You might be experiencing fear and want freedom. Or you might be experiencing freedom and feel afraid of losing it. You might be experiencing something wonderful and want to hold on to it, not want it to change. It’s all the same movement. There is a division in your experience, and there’s a struggle. It’s not peace. It’s not harmony. It’s not freedom. It is conflict and violence. I’m not saying anything esoteric. It is what you see if you just reflect on your experience. If you have experienced your essence, or moments of freedom and release, you will see that in those moments of happiness—moments of being your essence—there is no judgment, no conflict, no wanting. Essence does not operate that way. Essence has no judgmental attitude at all, even towards personality. Essence is a presence, something that is there. It can be loving, compassionate, or any other quality, but it is not rejection of one thing and acceptance of another. So this attitude of rejecting something which is there and wanting something else—which is the same movement—is actually the attitude of the personality itself. It is the personality, the ego personality. The basic structure of the personality is nothing but a rejection of what is there, and hope for something better.