Willfulness
Will is one of the aspects of Essence, an element of the true
human potential. In childhood it can be cut off and lost from
one's sense of who one is. The absence of this aspect will be
felt as a sense of castration, of a lack of inner support and
a lack of personal confidence. This deficiency is then usually
defended against by creating a false will. The false will is a
willfulness, a hard and rigid kind of determination, a stubbornness.
This false will is an imitation of the real Will which has been
cut off. It is a psychic structure constructed out of self-images
and object relations from the past. The essential Will, on the
other hand, is an aspect of Being, an existential presence, an
actuality in the present. It is flexible and realistic, and does
not have the rigidity and hardness of the ego will. It manifests
as a natural, spontaneous and implicit sense of inner support
and confidence. (The Pearl Beyond Price, pg 96)