Alienation

The alienation from Essence begins at least from the time of inception of psychic structures for, as we have discussed, these structures become established by the development of self-representations that pattern the experience of the self. Experiencing the self through representations is antithetical to direct experience of the essential Presence. The specific loss of identity with Essence -- which is the fundamental route of narcissism -- is the alienation from the essential identity. This particular alienation is the cause of central narcissism in particular. (The Point of Existence, pg 205)

These myriad factors -- some inherent, some common -- converge to dissociate the soul from her essence, in various degrees of alienation. The most import are:

Inadequacy of early holding environment
Caretaker’s narcissistic blindness
Extreme impressionability and malleability of the young soul
Nature of ego development in relation to the characteristics of the soul’s essence
Animal potential of the soul
Congenital and accidental physical limitations
Trauma and abuse (Inner Journey Home, pg 157)

Or you might experience it as an alienation from what you truly are. That is different from saying "I am missing myself," but it is the same state, expressed in different words. Or you might experience it as distance from your essence, or as the absence of self-realization. You might experience it as being superficial or unreal. (Spacecruiser Inquiry)