A. Hameed Ali – the Person
Interview by Bob Olson, Fall 2003
When and where were you born?
I was born in Kuwait in 1944. The actual birth date is not
certain because records were not kept at that time in Kuwait
and people did not celebrate birthdays.
What is your educational background?
I was mostly educated in the sciences. I received my BA in
physics and math, my MA in physics, and stopped my PhD studies
in physics just about the time of writing my thesis. Some
years later I received a Ph D in psychology specializing in
Reichian Therapy. I am mostly self-educated in the psychological
and psychoanalytic fields.
How did being married and having children influence your
spiritual development?
It is difficult to say. I usually think of marriage and family
as an important place to live the fruits of the teaching,
and not as a place to learn, though learning is bound to happen.
What I know is that I made the work, developing it and teaching
it, my first priority. It has always come before marriage,
family and children. When it comes to the work, I want to
benefit students as much as I do family. My family members
are simply members of the human race when it comes to the
work. Who gets my service
is determined by readiness and commitment to the work, not
family ties.
I also regard marriage and family as an expression of being
an ordinary member of the human race. It is part of living
life fully and part of the fruition of the inner work. Spiritual
development has many elements of fruition. One important
one is being a complete human being in society. Being in relation
to other human beings with the fullness of fruition expresses
this development.
Of course, learning to be with another human being is one
major crucible in working out personal issues and developing
the personal qualities that are important for personal maturity
that express the principle of the work of being in the world
but not of it. In such respect marriage and intimate relating
have been significant influences in my learning, but not how
I tend to view these life situations. I have been married
twice, one before I started functioning as a teacher and one
after I started, and it is clear to me how different I have
been in them.
What did you learn from your family of origin about religion
and spirituality?
My mother is religious and comes from a religious family
that functioned as leadership for a particular Muslim congregation
in the Middle East. Her father and uncle were in this line
of religious leadership but had very obvious spiritual orientations
and inclinations. Some of their ancestors were intimately
linked to some well-known Sufis. They were not Sufis but had
developed some true spiritual qualities. My mother is religious
but in the old traditional style of Islam, which included
tolerance, kindness, humanness, generosity and open mindedness.
My father, on the other hand, was secular. He believed in
God but he did not live a religious or spiritual life.
The overall effect on me was a freedom to be whatever I wanted
in terms of religion. There was no pressure to be religious
or not, but religious teachings and spiritual attitudes were
around in the environment and in the character of the people.
I grew up in my teens as secular, and my interest in the truth
turned me towards the sciences, as the way to find what is
true and real in the world. I think this is a direct influence
from my parents’ openness. The lack of pressure gave
me the freedom to find my way without coercion or indoctrination.
I had no explicit religious or spiritual leanings until my
twenties, but in retrospect I realize I had many spiritual
experiences and inclinations that I did not see at the time
as such, but were simply the normal way of being and behaving.
It was much later that I realized these conditions and flavors
were not normal or usual for most people. In other words,
the quality of beingness in my family, and the combination
of religious and secular influences, created an environment
where spiritual intimacy and depth were present without thinking
of them as anything unusual. I think this condition has influenced
my understanding that spiritual realization is part of the
inherent potential of humanity, and that spirituality can
be inseparable from being in the world. It also taught me
that spirituality is not necessarily connected to any particular
teaching or faith, but is natural to being truly human. This
is more what underlies my understanding of the principle of
being in the world but not of it, much more so than the explicit
Sufi teaching, which I was not aware of till my adult years.
I had no direct Sufi teaching in my childhood, and was not
interested explicitly in spiritual matters until my adult
years.
What profession did your parents want you to pursue?
They did not have a profession in mind for me. My father
was happy that I was pursuing scientific studies, but they
both were simply happy that I was doing well in school, without
regard to what I was studying. I think it was part of the
culture in Kuwait at that time that there was no calculated
planning for future professions, just the trust that things
will turn out fine if the individual develops the right character.
I myself thought I would become a scientist, and only in my
late twenties did I realize that what was behind that was
an implicit love to know the truth
of reality in as objective a manner as possible.
Why did you study physics and what led you to discount studying
physics and turn to the study of inner Reality?
I studied physics because I was interested in knowing
and comprehending the universe. I loved studying reality in
any way, since I was young, and I appreciated the beauty and
the mathematical precision of science. I both enjoyed such
studies and did quite well in them.
In my late twenties, when I was working on my PhD in physics
in the Rad Lab in Berkeley, I realized that what I was truly
after was a truth of the universe that was not available in
the sciences at the time. Around the same time, I became aware
of what kind of people most scientists were, and that I did
not want to be like that. I mean to be mostly intellect centered,
at the expense of other faculties and qualities of human beings.
I saw that the truth I had been looking for, without explicitly
knowing it, was the underlying ontological
and metaphysical foundation of existence. I went through a
few years where I experienced my interest in the sciences
waning as my interest in studying inner ways of experience
increased. That was a radical turn around, and I went through
many kinds of anxieties because of it. I did not do it intentionally;
it just happened. I never felt this as a discounting of science,
for I am still interested in it and value it for humanity's
lot. I simply discovered it was not the modality that was
going to take me to fulfill my destiny.
Why do you think the Diamond Approach manifested through
you?
It is difficult to know why, and I have always wondered why.
I never thought of myself as being special in any way, and
had no childhood training or exposure to spiritual teachings.
When I think about it the best answer I come up with is that
I was in the right time and the right place for it to come
through. I think the fact that I grew up in a traditional
but open-minded culture, in a safe and loving and human environment
(a kind of environment disappearing fast around the earth)
which gave me some kind of implicit connection to and understanding
of the underlying spiritual reality and spiritual values;
plus my scientific training and discipline
of mind that resulted from it, made me a relatively fit vehicle
for this particular teaching. Also, the fact that I grew up
in a traditional culture that implicitly appreciated spiritual
values, combined with spending my adult years in a Western
culture at the vanguard of secular, scientific and technological
advances, seem to have given me a kind of openness, malleability
and capacity to be receptive and appreciative of the precise
but experientially profound teaching of the Diamond Approach.
I also think that my exposure and involvement in the developing
growth therapies in the sixties and seventies added to this
preparation.
It is like the absolute
has given my individual soul the destiny to receive and put
out this teaching, and has groomed my soul specifically for
it by putting me in the situations necessary to develop the
right vessel for a teaching that embodies the ancient wisdom
but relevant to a post modern Western secular scientific culture.
My personal background combines both ingredients in some kind
of balance that seems
necessary for the emergence of the Diamond Approach. I did
not do it myself individually, did not know that was going
on, and found it out only after the fact, as insight into
my unfolding destiny. There can be other important factors
that I am not aware of at this point. One important point
here is that this function of putting the teaching out included
being a guinea pig for this new path, to be tried and tested.
It is actually more of a responsibility than a privilege,
but a responsibility I am grateful to shoulder, for it has
given me an effective way to serve.
How do you feel about the state of the world?
I tend not to think the state of the world to be especially
good or especially bad. It seems to me, it is not worse nor
better than I remember from forty years ago. And when I study
history, it seems to me that the world is materially better
off than it used to be in ancient times, but psychologically
about the same. I think there is more education in the world
now, and more awareness of human rights and values in a global
way, but human individuals, in general, do not seem to have
improved much. I do not think people are worse as people;
I think they are the same, still a mixture of love and hate,
gentleness and violence, generosity and greed, brilliance
and stupidity. The coexisting polarities are still with us
as they were with ancient humanity, where the balance
between them goes through some slight variations, slightly
up and slightly down.
In general, I think there is some slight improvement because
of the improvement of physical conditions and the increase
in education, but it is a very small improvement, that I think
can continue for thousands of years before we can feel a significant
change in the state of the world. I am neither apocalyptic
nor messianic, and believe both tendencies are a reflection
of imbalance in the mind. I know most people lean one way
or the other, but I find myself not to be involved in this
polarity and not interested in it. This leaves us with the
present, and what each individual can do for themselves and
for humanity, in simple and human terms, without having to
be special or in a special era.
Does the state of the world reflect a loving and intelligent
Spirit?
I do not know about what underlies the present state of the
world, but I do know that what happens in the world, and the
universe as a whole, is not up to human
beings only. I think if it was up to us human beings we
would not have survived this far; our exaggerated animality
would have destroyed us.
When I view things from the perspective of spiritual realization
it is clear that the universe
is the outer form of spirit, the appearance or body of "God."
All that happens is simply the morphogenic transformation
of this appearance. It is ultimately not our doing, yet we
are some of the vessels through which spirit functions. Since
this spiritual ground and nature is inherently good, pure
and self-revealing, I am generally optimistic about where
the universe is going. Whatever happens, whether it is what
we call good or bad, it is going the way this intelligence
wills it.
This does not relieve us from personal responsibility,
for we are the vessels through which much happens in the world,
and our happiness and fulfillment is in serving this spiritual
intelligence. To serve it means to be willing vehicles for
its pure perfections of love, peace, clarity and so on to
manifest and function in the world.
Do you have any hobbies or favorite past times?
No. I love reality
and enjoy living it. Everything I do is a matter of investigating
reality or living and expressing it. It does not matter what
I do, or how I spend my time, as long it is living the truth
I have realized.
This does not mean I do not enjoy the simple things in life;
I do and I enjoy some things more than others. I enjoy people,
nature, beauty, movies,
swimming, food and so on, but none of these is a hobby. They
are just some of the outer content of my everyday personal
life. What matters is the in-touchness with the heart of life,
the inner true nature with its peace, magnificence, clarity
and radiance.
How do your parents feel about your teachings?
My father was disappointed that I left science,
but before he died, he was fine when he realized I was still
living a good life. He just wanted to make sure I did not
fail life and that I was able to take care of myself. His
encounter with Sufis in his youth was mostly negative and
he ended up believing many of them were charlatans and superstitious,
so he was concerned that I was getting involved in mystical
teachings. But when he saw I was still a practical and effective
person, and was able to take care of myself, he was okay with
what I was doing, even though he was not familiar of the specifics
of what I was doing. My mother is contented that I am happy
with what I do. She does not know or understand my teaching
much, except that it is of a spiritual nature. She sometimes
makes noises about me needing to be more religious, but tends
to trust that what I am doing is good. She seems to look more
at how I personally feel and express myself than what I teach.
As far as I can tell, she likes what she sees, and we have
a very good relationship.
Do you get angry? If so how is does your anger express itself
now versus before you engaged fully in the inner journey?
I get angry sometimes. In the past, I did not get angry easily,
and it used to be more difficult to be aware of it or to express
it. But I was never that angry of a person. The difference
now is that when anger
comes it tends to be strong and fiery, and not concerned about
judgment. I tend to express my anger mostly to get things
moving when there is no other way to do it. It easily and
swiftly transforms into some kind of strength. It also tends
to pass rapidly without leftovers, sometimes surprising how
there remains just peacefulness and contentment after it.
How has your sexual life changed since you began the inner
journey?
It got deeper, stronger, more pleasurable, more intimate
and more exquisite. Sexual energy became much more available,
without historical constraints. Sexual feelings and experience
have developed in ways I could not imagine before the transformation.
Sexual life is actually one significant way that human maturity
expresses itself, developing as this maturity deepens and
expands, bringing about further ranges of experience and interaction.
In other words, the liberation of realization liberates sexuality
to become what it can be. It is also always developing and
changing and bringing about newer possibility of being and
expressing.
At the same time I have never felt inclined to think of my
sexual life as a way to expand my spiritual realization. It
is the other way around. It is one way that spiritual realization
expresses itself, by giving the absolute the opportunity to
experience some of its delightful possibilities.
If you are sitting next to someone on an airplane and they
ask you what you do, what might you say? (I remember you sharing
that once you told a person you write cook books).
It depends on the situation or the individual.
If the individual is simply trying to make conversation, I
can say anything. I can talk about being a researcher of human
nature, a consciousness dealer, a scientist, one involved
in human development, and so on. If the individual is truly
interested I can talk more directly about the work in a way
that can communicate to the individual. Most of the time in
these situations the individual is trying to strike a conversation
or trying to be nice or is lonely and needing company. I respond
to these, and not just to the letter of the questions. I do
not remember anything about cook books; sometimes I say I
am an author and talk about writing and so on, and have said
outrageous things in order to simply engage in a warm or lively
conversation. . However, I tend to be private in public and
keep my life to myself, unless there is a real need or interest.
I tend not to have a need for conversation or socializing,
and I am by temperament not that social. Because of that what
I say sometimes is to discourage further social talk.
Why did you come to the United States and how has living
in this country influenced you?
I came to this country to go to college. I went to the University
of California in Berkeley, where I studied math and physics.
I had a scholarship from the Kuwait ministry of Education.
Living in this country influenced me mostly through education
and my encounter with a modern Western culture. I am by now
very much a post-modern consciousness, reaping the benefits
of science and technology, and thriving in the openness and
freedom of a democratic and free market economy. The Diamond
Approach could not have developed except in a secular and
free society, as we have in the US. Living in this country
has completed the preparation of my individual soul necessary
for fulfilling my destiny, that of being the conduit, vehicle,
and servant of the absolute in its manifestation of the teaching
of the Diamond Approach. Hence, I am grateful to both my country
of origin and the country I am living in presently, both for
me individually and for the fulfillment of my destiny in formulating
and putting out the Diamond Approach.
What have been the pivotal external events and internal
experiences that have influenced you?
In terms of external events: First the polio I got when I
was about two years old. This created a vulnerability
and physical dependence on others, which helped me become
a socially sensitive individual, but also inwardly autonomous.
It also gave me the necessity to turn inward to experience
life. The actual mechanics of having to use a crutch to walk
has affected my body in a way where I could not ignore my
inner sensations. So I developed an inner sensitivity and
a dynamic inner life that has always been independent from
external situations. The polio created a limitation in terms
of physical and social functioning, but it also allowed some
inner-strengths to develop.
The second external event occurred when I was in college
in my early twenties. I was involved in a traffic accident
and had to be on the critical list in a hospital for some
time. At the moment of the accident I left the body, but my
experience was not the usual out-of-body experience. Rather
I right away saw myself in the absolute and recognized myself
as the embodiment of what I later came to know as the Diamond
Guidance, a faceted body of light and presence, a diamond
body, that contains all the qualities of true nature. At the
time, I forgot that perception and retained only a carefree
basic trust that life and existence are good and the right
things will happen. It took few years of inner work some years
later to regain the memory of this experience, as part of
the process of integrating the functioning of the Diamond
Guidance. It was a real process of reliving, as if I was undergoing
it in the moment, which resulted in much understanding of
what happened after that. What I see now is that the accident
functioned as the turning point of my attention from studying
the universe externally to exploring it internally. That happened
as a gradual process of discovery and not as an instant conversion,
which also means the process developed a systematic body of
knowledge.
However, I think none of these events could have affected
me the way they did if I had not received the true nurturance
and love from my parents and family in early childhood. Even
though my childhood included the trauma of polio and coming
close to death, and
various psychological difficulties and conflicts in my family
dynamics, love and caring were implicitly present as the atmosphere
that my siblings and I grew up in. That affected me, I believe,
more than anything else, directly and implicitly at the time
and later on as I got to explicitly recognize it in my personal
journey of discovery.
Another event that I think influenced me a great deal was
leaving Kuwait at age 18 and moving to the US. That created
a confluence of the values of traditional cultures and those
of modernity in my consciousness
in a way that resulted in an integration relevant for our
times, an integration that is not separate from the integration
of the mature human being in the Diamond Approach.
Another one is meeting my friend Karen Johnson, and the development
of our friendship in ways that I never imagined possible,
a friendship of spirit that became one of the important crucibles
for the development of the Diamond Approach.
In terms of inner experiences, one important one is that
of recognizing myself as the embodiment of the Diamond Guidance,
at the time of the traffic accident. I think that perception
went underground in my consciousness and exerted an influence,
slowly but inexorably, to reveal the nature and functioning
of the Diamond Guidance, methodically and gradually and in
great and explicit detail. This has become one major way that
the Diamond Approach manifested. The Diamond Guidance did
not just manifest, but rather functioned to reveal the teaching
of the Diamond Approach, and to unfold my soul
and experience towards the deepening realization of true nature
in its various qualities and dimensions. That is why I usually
say that individually I could not have developed the Diamond
Approach. It was revealed by the Diamond Guidance, which is
the messenger and the intelligent guidance of the absolute
to reveal its treasures and its ultimate mystery.
Another experience was the discovery of true
nature as presence. I knew about the concept of essence
and true nature but did not know it was presence, or what
presence was. So recognizing what I am, as the very beingness
of consciousness and awareness, opened up the inner realm
in a way that never closed down. It began the true inner unfoldment
and the arising of the teaching of Diamond Approach.
Many transformative experiences ensued after that, each one
deeper and more profound than the other. One was the realization
of the point of light and presence,
which shifted my identity with experiential certainty to the
realm of spirit. Another was the discovery of the personal
essence, the pearl beyond price, which made it possible for
me to recognize the importance and nature of human
maturity and its relation to spiritual realization and
its integration in everyday living. Another important experience,
which became a continuing and deepening realization, is the
recognition of the absolute as what I ultimately am, and understanding
its transcendence of all manifestation, its immanence as the
body of the divine, and its expression as the total human
being in the world. The discovery of the absolute was the
moment I recognized the true object of my heart’s search,
and the beginning of the wordless contentment
of arriving home.
Another experience is the recognition and understanding of
the soul, which lead to the unfolding of its knowledge and
potential, and its integration in the absolute transcendent
mystery, as I detail
in Luminous Night’s Journey. There have been innumerable
experiences, discoveries and realizations, each one of them
revealing to me the essence of one traditional teaching or
another. At each of these junctures I felt I was so free and
fulfilled I could have died at that moment with total fulfillment
and satisfaction. A book can be written about each of them,
yet the true realization is the recognition that it is not
the experiences but the transformation and liberation that
come with them, which is both a metamorphic transubstantiation
of the soul and the abiding in the absolute nature. In time
I saw that the journey is a path of ripening.
We must not think this is all that is possible for a human
being. This is the enlightenment
and realization necessary for liberation. But the human potential
extends much further, where the liberation allows the freedom
to access realms of experience and perception, and ways of
being and action, that are not usually discussed by the various
teachings. They are the inner life of the mature human being,
one who has integrated the inner path.
Who have been the formal and informal teachers in your life?
How did they influence you?
I have already discussed this matter in the introduction
to Luminous Night’s Journey. I have had many human teachers,
who benefited me a great deal, and to whom I am deeply grateful.
Yet my primary teacher has always been true nature, my own
essential nature, especially through its messenger and guide,
the Diamond Guidance.
Who are your teachers now?
When you recognize yourself with certainty and continuity
as the true nature with all its majesty and beauty, you do
not have teachers anymore. It does not make sense any longer.
I was also in the unusual situation where I recognized that
my process of ripening was not only for myself, but was mostly
functioning as the vehicle for the arising and the transmission
of the Diamond Approach. To be formally and continually studying
with a teacher would have limited this function, or at least
not allowed it to unfold in its own logic and pace. Yet, as
an individual soul that embodies the absolute nature I learn
from everybody. All life situations and all individuals are
sources of learning. I continue to learn from contacts with
various teachers and teaching, without adopting any as my
teacher. I also have good friends with whom I talk and exchange
ideas, and I continue to study and explore in general.
At the same time, for some time now my work is not primarily
to work on myself, that always continues anyway, but to serve
the absolute nature by being and living it in the midst of
the world. It is to be the mystery and to express its enchanting
luminosity.
Do you have any regrets in life?
No regrets. Simply sorrow for mistakes I made and could not
have done otherwise at the time. The sorrow is mostly for
actions that helped cause pain and suffering
to others. There is the sense of sorrow when remembering such
actions, but the individual who actually took these actions
is not around anymore. It is not what I am now. In terms of
the course of my own life, I have no regrets and I cannot
have any. For I have recognized for some time, with a redundancy
of confirmation, that my life is guided by something deeper
and more fundamental than my individual mind. In a more fundamental
sense, I experience and recognize myself as the absolute nature,
and how can the absolute, which is transcendent to everything,
have regrets.
What’s it like to be Hameed?
It is what you see and it is other than what you see. What
you see is Hameed, the ordinary, good-natured person who loves
people and enjoys life, discovery and being. He has his concerns
and his ordinary worldly interests and pleasures. He has his
limitations that he has to contend with, just as all human
beings do. Yet, the heart of this ordinary individual, his
experience of himself, has no self-image,
and no constant inner form. It is invisible to all except
to ones who know it intimately from their own experience,
ones who have left the ordinary world but still live in it.
One has to have first realized the absolute before one can
have a glimpse or understanding, even appreciation, of such
inner life. It is not something to be discussed except with
ones who can see or approach it, and hence I have never taught
it. What’s it like to be that is not like anything known
in the known world. It is invisible partly because it is not
possible to imagine it. Its beginning is detachment from being
the absolute, and hence the absence of concern about realization
and inner states in general.
Why did you use the pen name A.H. Almaas for your books?
When I first wanted to publish Essence and the Elixir of
Enlightenment, the publisher, Weiser, thought that my name
sounded too Sufi and Sufi books were not popular at the time.
That coincided with my sentiment at the time, which was partly
that I wanted to be anonymous because of valuing my privacy,
and partly because of recognizing that the Diamond Guidance
was the source of the teaching, not myself as an individual.
My friend, Hameed Qabazard, came up with the name, A. H. Almaas.
I liked it because it has my initials, A. H. A. but Almaas
meant in Arabic, and other languages, diamonds. So the name
expresses the truth that the individual, A. Hameed Ali, is
the outer vessel for the inner source, the diamonds of consciousness.
How do you have the time to be husband, father, spiritual
leader, and to write a dozen original and profound books?
First, I have not put that much time in being a father; I
arranged my life so that I could focus on my work, where there
are many students all needing care, not just my children.
I have organized my life in such a way as to support my function
of putting out the teaching of the Diamond Approach. Everything
else is either supportive of this function or is peripheral
to my life. Such clarity and focus, and the dedication to
serving the truth, create a great deal of time, for time is
not wasted in so many things that are not necessary or useful.
It is part of being a mature human adult in the inner path
meaning. That is why I do not have hobbies. For most people,
time is wasted in inner rumination and reactivity,
or external interests that do not serve the ultimate truth.
I am simply not interested in these inner or outer things.
Even my vacations and resting time, my entertainment and socializing,
are to support the service
of truth. Yet, it is natural, and feels pleasurable, and as
what I want and prefer to do. So there is no sense of inner
compulsion. In
the true maturity of realization, there is no distinction
between serving the truth and doing what one wants to do.
There is total harmony between the two, as two ways of saying
the same thing.
Yet, the organization of my life and its circumstances are
a continuing process. It is always changing as things happen,
as my body ages, as the world changes, as the realization
develops and reveals new possibilities, and as the
work and the school develop and evolve. Also, I am aware
of the limitations of time and my personal limitations and
the limitations of my situation, and have to always use my
intelligence to do what I can, and not to plan on doing more
than I can.
But I think what underlies this sense of the availability
of time is the awareness of the timelessness
of reality. Timelessness gives the sense and feeling of spaciousness
in time, which psychologically or subjectively feels as absence
of time-crowdedness. This, plus the mature recognition of
the limitations of ordinary time become integrated into efficient
functioning and living. Actually, the real trick is not that
of finding time for the things you mention, but having enough
empty space and time for the arising of new discoveries that
develop and enrich the teaching.
What are some of your personal and professional goals for
the future?
I have no personal or professional goals
for the future. I do not usually set up goals for myself.
I just do what is needed, and things develop the way they
can. Who am I to know what is supposed to happen in the future!
My destiny is to put out the Diamond Approach, and it is happening.
I will keep doing it in whatever way that presents itself
as effective and doable. It has been a long time since I realized
I exhausted all my goals and ambitions. My primary goal was
the realization of the secret of existence, and since then
I have not seen any new goals developing.
What is left are momentary goals, like planning to eat dinner
with a friend a couple of nights from now, or travel arrangements
for vacation in few months and so on. But no goals as we usually
understand them. My life is pretty much in the moment, and
what is there to want when reality is at hand. Furthermore,
service does not require the setting up of future goals, for
it has its own intelligence
and inner logic. It is the spontaneous outflow of true nature
in life circumstances in the moment. And the implicit trust
that its intelligence is sufficient to lead it to whatever
needs to be done.
Do you know of any enlightened people on the planet today?
Are you enlightened? Do you expect to be enlightened?
I use the concept of enlightenment sparingly because I use
it in a technical way. I do not mean simply the experience
of true nature, the recognition of true nature, or even the
realization of or abiding in true nature, whether non-dual
or not. Many people, including many teachers, use the term
in these ways. If we use it to mean such things, then of course
I am enlightened and we have also many enlightened individuals
in our school. That is why I usually use the concept of realization,
which I differentiate from enlightenment, even though I am
aware that my teachers use the two terms interchangeably.
By realization I mean the ability to abide in true nature,
to recognize and be true nature. Since true nature has many
dimensions, or
degrees of subtlety, there are degrees or levels of realization.
Also, because there are many degrees of completeness of realization
or capacity of abiding in true nature, there are many levels
of realization. Hence, realization can develop and mature,
by realizing true nature in subtler, deeper or more total
ways, and by the completeness of such capacity of abiding.
This implies that one can attain a degree of realization but
there still remain some obscurations, issues, unresolved personal
or historical conditioning, or the possibility of the arising
of such
When realization becomes full and permanent I call it enlightenment.
This has two sides. One is that there are no more obscurations
or the possibility of the development of obscurations. No
more issues, no more inner lack of clarity and no more inner
limitations of one’s experience. The other is the full
and permanent awareness
of the totality of true nature, in all its subtlety and dimensions,
with the total freedom for it to manifest in whatever way
necessary. Together they imply permanent living in the fullness
of the real world, without holding to any particular teaching
or perspective, or view of enlightenment or need for it.
This is the reason why I do not subscribe to the view of
there being enlightened but neurotic or crazy individuals.
I do not know anybody enlightened this way, and I am definitely
not so enlightened. If there are presently enlightened beings
like this I have not met them. There are, though, many realized
individuals with various degrees of realization; and I do
not see myself as one of the most realized. Realization can
also come in kinds, so there are not only different degrees
but also different kinds of realization.
Do I expect to arrive at full realization or enlightenment?
I do not expect or not expect it; it is a possibility, but
it does not concern me. It is simply the natural maturation
of realization, as long as there is sincerity, the true openness
to reality and the absence of the need to know in a final
way.
Do you have a regular mediation practice? What is your experience
when you meditate?
I have several practices that I engage depending on the time,
but mostly it is being where I am, and light-hearted inquiry
that arises spontaneously some of the time. My experience
during meditation
is pretty much the same as outside of meditation, except that
the continuous focus of meditation sometimes gives my condition
more clarity of manifestation. I have already discussed this
condition some above.
What is your fondest childhood memory?
I do not know, but one I remember is that of eating dinner
with my father, his friends, and my younger brother, in the
dark on the beach, some summer night. We were all eating from
the same bowl, lamb and rice, and none of us could see what
we were eating or who was eating what. I felt so free, trusting,
enjoying the food, the company and the canopy of stars lighting
the night sky.
How do you see your role on the planet?
I have many roles, but my function and destiny is to put
out the Diamond Approach, as my primary way of living and
serving true nature.
How has your reading influenced your spiritual path?
There are different kinds of reading, depending on the kind
of book. Primarily, I have benefited from two kinds of books.
I learned a great deal from scholarly or technical ones, in
both psychology and spirituality. I learned much of my knowledge
of psychology and psychoanalysis from studying books. The
reading had to be checked and compared with experience and
observation, mine and others. The result is the integration
of much of this psychological knowledge in the understanding
of mind and soul, which became very instrumental in the conceptualizations
and methodology of the Diamond Approach. The same with reading
the texts of many of the traditional teachings; the concepts
and views helped me be open to various kinds of realities
and helped me understand and formulate my experience and the
content of the teaching.
The other kind of books are the expression of the states
of realization. These are books written by realized
individuals and teachers, from various traditions and teachings.
Frequently these books are edited versions of talks such teachers
had given. In this kind of reading the learning is not cerebral,
but more of accessing the states of consciousness of the writer
or teacher. The books function as conduits for the transmission
of their states of realization. I happened to develop the
sensitivity to be open to such direct transmission through
the word. I learned a great deal this way, where the reading
and understanding of the books became the experience and exposure
to the states of realization of the particular authors. It
is obvious how this can influence one’s spiritual path,
for these experiences contribute both to the openness of the
consciousness and the development of wisdom. This helped me
in my own realization, and in the formulation of the Diamond
Approach. Usually, I experience the conditions discussed in
the books, and then I will see their relation to what is arising
in the Diamond Approach. This both helped to expand my experience
in the Diamond Approach, and to see how it was understood
in other teachings. The result is that the Diamond Approach
manifested within a direct knowing of many of the well known
conditions discussed in traditional teachings.
The usual sequence of events is that I will experience something
from some teaching or teacher. But since I am interested in
being where I am, my experience will unfold in such a way
to reveal new qualities or dimensions in the Diamond Approach,
contrasted with the experience from the other teaching, and
showing how the Diamond Approach connects it to ego experience
and so on. Sometimes it happens the other way around. Something
arises as part of the Diamond Approach, like a dimension of
Being. I read some books that I get interested in as a result.
My experience helps me be open to the teaching in the book,
which then develops the unfoldment of the Diamond Approach
with greater precision and specificity.
It is amazing how the Diamond Guidance makes it so clear what
the teaching I received from the book is, and what is actually
the teaching of the Diamond Approach, and how they are similar
or different.
It is important to see how the Diamond Approach manifested
not only in a Western secular environment, but in an environment
suffused by the availability of many traditional and new spiritual
teachings.
Who is your favorite author/authors?
In terms of spiritual writers, I think the best is Idries
Shah, in the many books he wrote about Sufism and Sufi teachings.
Not in terms of the depth or subtlety of thought or teaching,
but in the skill of writing that used spiritual capacities.
He wrote in such a way that each word did its job exactly
and to the point. It is what I call objective writing, written
from a true place that wanted to communicate some truths,
and that is all. No extra personal vested interests or emotional
need satisfaction. I think he succeeded in various degrees
in his books to do that. I see his writing as expressing some
of the capacities of the Diamond Guidance. It seems to me
that he used his writing as part of his way of transmission
of his teaching to his students. If one truly worked with
his writings one becomes open to the direct transmission from
Idries Shah of the spiritual energy of his Naqshabandi lineage.
It is similar to what Rumi did in his poetry.
I also enjoy reading fiction, especially science fiction.
My favorite writer here is Frank Herbert, author of the Dune
series.
In the preface of your new book, “The Inner Journey
Home,” you wrote: “By writing and publishing this
book, and the others before it, I am fulfilling a facet of
my personal function as a discriminating and expressive organ,
and an appreciative servant, of this wonderful and magnificent
truth of Reality”. What are some other facets of your
life? Can you say more about how you are a “discriminating
and expressive organ”? Can you say more about how you
are a appreciative servant of this wonderful and magnificent
truth of Reality?
Other facets of my function are teaching students, training
teachers, communicating in various ways and forms in public
and in private, living the different areas of my life as an
expression of realization and so on. All these are facets
of putting out the Diamond Approach, which is my primary function.
By organ I am referring to the individual soul as it matures,
comes into its own, and fulfills its destiny.
When the soul matures it explicitly and consciously becomes
an organ of perception and action for the absolute. It always
is, but its maturity means its clarification and completion
so that it consciously becomes aware of that, and recognizes
that its fulfilled life is to serve the absolute by willingly
and happily functioning as its organ of perception and action.
As the individual soul I recognize myself as the appreciative
servant of the absolute, at the same time that I recognize
the absolute to be my nature and identity.
As the absolute I manifest the soul as my organ of perception
and action in the world of manifestation, for without the
soul I have no way of having experience, perception, knowledge
and so on. As the soul I am the surrendered soul accepting
and happily fulfilling its function of serving the absolute
by being its personal vehicle and instrument.
When the soul matures the absolute becomes aware of itself,
for the developed soul gives it the discriminating capacity
necessary for such recognition and enlightenment. I am both,
in inseparable oneness,
just as the body includes the eye and the eye is inseparable
from the body.
At the end of Chapter Twenty Four in your new book “The
Inner Journey Home” you wrote: “We are essence
with all facets, dimensions and aspects, but we are also the
human being, with his perishable body, his corruptible mind
and twisted heart.” Enlightened beings have perishable
bodies. Do they also have corruptible minds and twisted hearts?
I am referring here to the normal condition of human beings,
where we are true nature with all of its purity, the soul
which is corruptible and the body which is perishable. The
more realized we are the more we have our soul clarified and
matured, which means purified of the causes of corruption.
Full enlightenment means the soul is completely clarified,
purified, completed and awakened so there is no more corruptibility.
In this condition the soul is totally inseparable from the
absolute, totally characterized by its incorruptible purity.
How have you been influenced by women in your spiritual
life?
Starting with my mother, grandmothers, sisters and cousins,
later with friends and lovers, then wives and daughters, students
and teachers, I wouldn’t be who I am without women.
Woman is one way the absolute manifests itself in order to
experience and know itself. Man is another. With the two together,
the absolute knows itself in ways not possible by each one
of them. The absolute is eternally unchanging, but it manifests
all the changes of the universe. I have developed a great
deal because of my relation to women and manifest my nature
in ways not possible except with women. In terms of formal
teaching I never had an outside female teacher, but I have
not had formal teachers for over 25 years now. Yet, my development
wouldn’t be the way it is if it was not for the influence
of my various relationships with women, as family, friends
and students. The maturity of my heart, and the completeness
of the sense of being a man, are two particular areas that
could not have happened without relation to women.
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